看着镜中的自己,他从容镇定,却忽然在一瞬间回想起爱人的眼眸,疼得心脏快要停止跳动;他静静望向窗外玩耍的孩子,灿烂的阳光,恩爱的夫妇,稀松平常的生活琐事,想象着自己将要死去,一瞬间难以直视邻居投来的友好目光。他像对待圣经一样对待手枪,神圣地装进公文包里,他吻了他的保姆,说着“you are wonderful”,他知道那是最后的吻别。
A few times in my life I've had moments of absolute clarity, when for a few brief seconds the silence drowns out the noise and I can feel rather than think, and things seem so sharp and the world seems so fresh. I can never make these moments last. I cling to them, but like everything, they fade. I have lived my life on these moments. They pull me back to the present, and I realize that everything is exactly the way it was meant to be.