Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy
老土的模范情人
I can dim the lights
And sing you songs full of sad things
We can do the tango just for two
I can serenade and gently play
On your heart strings
Be your Valentino just for you
Ooh love Ooh lover boy
What you did tonight hey boy?
Set my alarm turn on my charm
That's because I'm a good old fashioned lover boy
Ooh let me feel you heartbeat
(Grow faster faster)
Ooh can you feel my love heat
Come on and sit on my hot seat of love
And tell me how do you feel right after all
I'd like for you and I to go romancing
Say the word your wish is my command
Ooh love Ooh lover boy
what you did tonight hey boy?
Write my letter feel much better
And use my fancy patter on the telephone
When I'm not with you
Think of you always I miss you
(I miss those long hot summer nights)
When I'm not with you
Think of me always love you love you
Hey boy where did you get it from?
Hey boy where did you go?
I learned my passion
In the good old fashioned school of lover boys
Dining at the Ritz we'll meet at nine precisely
(One two three four five six seven eight nine o'clock)
I will pay the bill you taste the wine
Driving back in style in my saloon will do quite nicely
Just take me back to yours that will be fine
(Come on and get it)
Ooh love Ooh lover boy
what you did tonight hey boy?
Ev'rything's all right just hold on tight
That's because I'm a good old fashioned (fashioned) lover boy
(之三)218:
J从佛蒙特旅行回来,一进门就看到B在fuck,心上的那道伤口估计此时在滴血吧,这里进一步加深了BJ两个感情的矛盾冲突。
B:回来了
J:你注意到了
(J想要的是自己在B心目中留有一个特殊的爱人的位置,他认为两个人既然已经在一起B就应该在私生活上稍稍有所收敛并对他有所关爱,而现在B一如从前,致使J感觉不到B在爱他。)
J与Dphne在街上的对话
J:我一回来就去他那儿,想给他个惊喜,他却像没听到,没看到似的……(J现在是真的以为B的这种共处方式不算爱他,行为方式可以导致很多误解,行为方式的不同也会造成两人思想交流时达不到共鸣)
而在这时候,恰巧遇到之前送J生日礼物的Ethan在街上拉小提琴。(这不仅仅是编剧颇具用心的安排,也是这么多集BJ情感冲突后必需要有的突破口吧,戏剧化了,尤其是J与Ethan的缘份)
在Ethan房间,Ethan:Well, lucky him. He's got a great job, great place full of beautiful things.
那他可真幸运,他有份好工作,一个满是好东西的….好住处(这里Ethan其实已经暗示B拥有J是幸运的)
之后Ethan其实还有挽留的意思,门口那段通过眼神及神态我们可以看得出Ethan先表达出对J的那种热情,但J没有动摇,毅然走出了Ethan房间。
B回家后,BJ的一段对话,很精彩但同时看得也很令人心酸,这段话大部分镜头特写在J的脸部表情:
(中文翻译是从原视频中照搬,可能与原英文剧本有细微差别,大致意思无关痛痒,所以,还请各位将就着看哈)
J: You're home late. 你回来晚了
B: I got a new account. 我接了个新案子
J:That's nice. "How was your day, Justin?" 那很好,(然后开始装Brian的语气问自己)今天过得怎么样?Justin
B:In fucking one day I got a new presentation. 该死的一天…..要我做什么介绍
J:"It was not bad, thanks for asking. How is yours?" "A lot better than you!" (自问自答)还不错,谢谢你问我,你呢?(又开始装B的语气用低沉的声音笑着说)和你在一起好多了。
而B:That fucking Steakhouse. I'm supposed to be brillant. 该死的饭店广告,我的灵感都哪去了。
J:Did you miss me? "Every minute you're away. You're all I thoughed about. Please never leave me again." 想我了吗?(没有听到回音,注意:J自嘲的笑了一下,然后再装B的语气自答)离开你的每分每秒,我都在想你,请别再离开我了。
B:Who the fuck are you talking to? (完全无视J的失落)你在和谁说话呢?
J(这里他暗自神伤):No-one. 没有人
B:And what's with the little voice? Are you... planning... to become... a ventriloquist? 还有…..你在装谁呢?你..想..当口技表演者?
J:That's one way to hear what you want. (有些哀怨,还有些无奈):这是唯一能听到你想法的方式
B走过来轻轻抚摸着J的头(B当时感受到了J的不悦与难受,B的动作表现出了他当时对J的那种怜爱之情),而J神态凄凄然的低了低头
B:So, how was your trip? 你的旅行怎么样?(不过现在才问,似乎有些迟)
J(明显有一丝丝高兴B终于开始关心了,悄悄小笑了一下):No much fun without you. 你不在一点也不好玩
B:Why didn't you tell me, you're going? 为什么你走时不告诉我
J:I didn't think you cared. 我想你不会在意的(有前车之鉴,B连J与男妓之间的fuck都不在意,答应陪他去旅行临时放鸽子没有任何安慰,使J受伤他都不在意,所以,J当时认为B是不会在意的)
这时B却说:I had things I had to do. 我还有工作必须做。
(J再次由小小的欣慰转变成失望,但他还是想进一步确认):Did you miss me? 你想我吗?
沉默,然后B用经常所做的行动回答了J。在这里,J的内心其实真的很无助。
(ML的画面反映了J当时那种心境,他的眉头紧锁,眼神哀怨,痛并快乐着:痛的是心灵,快乐的是肉体,他抱着的不是B,而是房间的那根柱子,似乎只有佑大房间中的那根柱子可以相依)
不得不令人佩服的是QAF中伴随画面的经典音乐,很能将人带入当时的那种意境,附上BJ两个ML时的歌曲:
the best things
got a green light gotta green light yeah
But i'm going nowhere
gotta green light gotta red light yeah
No stop no stop I don't care
Every one of you could be the same
Every one of you could play the game
Gotta green light gotta green light yeah
But ya goin' nowhere
You know the best things in life aren't for me
You know the best things in life aren't for free
Gotta new life gotta new plight yeah
And it's going nowhere
On a mountaintop like a pin drop yeah
No God no thought I don't care
Every one of you could be the same
Every one of you can play this game
gotta new life gotta new plight yeah
And it's going nowhere
gotta new find gotta new crime yeah
And its going nowhere
Like a global path like a car crash yeah
No cop no stop he don't care
Every one of you are just the same
Every one of you will play this game
Gotta new find gotta new crime yeah
And it's going nowhere
再来看结尾的歌曲《love song》,Love Song的歌词异常直白,甚至有些痴狂。这样的一首歌由治疗乐队唱出来, 多少有些怪异,却怪异得超级成功。(这里我还愣了一下,是治疗乐队喔,是巧合?还是有意影射J到Ethan这里来是为了治疗伤痛),带着些许凄凉,并且迷幻煸情到不行。
听这首歌,就像在听一个孤独的男人对自己梦想中的爱人唱情歌。他渴望爱,却得不到; 他梦想着和爱人在一起,却无法实现. 这首歌真性情的唱出J心底最脆弱的地带,将它撕碎而重生!而此时的我们,心如刀割。
附上歌词:
Love song----- The Cure
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
《Without You I'm Nothing》
没有你我什么也不是
Strange infatuation seems to grace the evening tide.
无法言喻的痴恋仿佛使夜色更为迷人
I’ll take it by your side.
我在你身边欣赏着
Such imagination seems to help the feeling slide.
这种幻觉似乎促使着感情的转变
I’ll take it by your side.
我在你身边感受着
Instant correlation sucks and breeds a pack of lies.
速食般的关系很恶心,不断孕育出大量的谎言
I’ll take it by your side.
我在你身边忍受着
Oversaturation curls the skin and tans the hide.
过于了解你的一切,我的心被不断打击着
I’ll take it by your side.
我在你身边承受着
tick - tock
tick - tick - tick - tick - tick - tock
I’m unclean,a libertine
我放荡不洁
And every time you vent your spleen,
每次你一发脾气,
I seem to lose the power of speech,
我便无话可说
Your slipping slowly from my reach.
你渐渐的远离我
You grow me like an evergreen,
你只把我当作常青植物那样养着,不管不顾
You never see the lonely me at all
从没留意过我的孤单
I... Take the plan, spin it sideways.
这种想法,不断盘旋在我脑海
I... Fall.
我却依旧沉沦
Without you, I’m Nothing.
没有你,我算什么
Without you, I’m Nothing.
没有你,我什么也不是
Without you, I’m Nothing.
没有你,我什么也不是
Take the plan, spin it sideways.
想法不断在脑海盘旋
Without you,I’m nothing at all.
没有你,我根本什么也不是
阁楼,J哼着小曲回来(J真的获得了浪漫的爱情吗?)
B正独自落寞的喝着苦酒,J看到B站房中央时吓了一跳。
J:Jesus,Brian。I thoughed you were bowling.
B:Game‘s over. (这里B的声音是嘶哑的,莫大的痛苦默默承受)
J:How did you do?
B:We're cheers to the winners.
J:Way to go.
B这时深深的叹了一口气,(Debbie说的话是没错,J爱B有多深,B爱J就有多深)
B:It wasn't us.
J准备去浴室,被B拦住:Where are you going?
J:Take a shower.
B:You sure take a lot of showers lately. Come here.
J:Later. (一向顺从的J也会有抵抗的时候)
B的语气有些强硬:Now.
J:Can't we do after that?
B:I like smelling you, not soap.(如此煽情的话语、如此深情的目视之下,J怎能不心动?)
(以下这段吻戏是我整个五季中最喜欢的一段激情戏,个人认为比H段更精彩,所以稍稍作下尝试,胡乱写了一通,希望看不顺的朋友们别拿砖块砸我啊)
B轻轻抚摸着J的头发,继续深情的注视着眼前让他心烦意乱的J,J逐渐被B的眼神融化。
倏地,B的右手掌猛地托住J的后颈,左手拦腰拥住J。一股热气轰的冲上J头顶,就好像麻醉剂一样,瞬间将J全身的力气抽得干干净净,一丝不剩。B狂热得出乎意料,像是用尽了有生以来最大的激情,嘴唇乐此不疲在J的唇上流连忘返的吸吮,唇舌柔韧而极具占有欲, B加大力度的同时手开始拉扯J的衣服......
(此时B的心里应该还只是单纯的想要J,想留住J)
两人呼吸都有些急促,,中间有瞬间的停顿,唇分,B开始清醒起来,注视着眼前的J,那颗支离破碎的心再次隐隐作痛,痛到无法承受J的背叛。
(估计此时的B是对J的背叛心有不甘,开始转念想给J一些惩罚与警告):
B继续加深掐入J头发的手指力道,在唇舌来往中,J胸口渐渐发热发烫,因窒息晕眩双手无力的搭在B的肩膀上,时间仿佛静止一般,激起莫名的不安与躁动通过双方唇角的银液牵扯泄露出来,耳边的呼吸声越来越粗重。
两人继而躺在地上,相互进一步的索取……
B:You like that?
J有些迫切的回答:yes
B开始转移阵地,眼睛、鼻子、下巴,在J脸上脖间的每一寸肌肤上密密细细地印下无数的吻,不断地索取,不断地用力。
值到J不能自已的时候,B戛然而止。
J喘息着:Why you just stop?
B沉默,抬身将手支撑在地板上,用一种冷峻犀利的眼神盯着J看了良久。
J迷茫了:Brian?
B贴近嗅了嗅J,冷冷地说:Go take a shower. You stink
只剩J一脸受伤的表情,无奈地从地上爬起……
阁楼
J:Brian
B眼睛盯着电脑,嘴唇咬着手指,这时候的B在紧张等待着。
J相反显得冷静了许多:I’m sorry
J是一个勇敢的人,当事情到了不得不面临决择的时候,他总是可以拿出最大的勇气来应付。
B:what for?(这里一下子感觉B老了很多,神态,气势上都像一个准备着随时被人抛弃的可怜的老人,动作却像个无辜的孩子,叉着手托着下巴,眼睛一动不动的盯着电脑)
J:你知道原因的,我没想到那会发生
B(手都没地方摆了,明显不安):I know, 你是一场爱情重击中的可怜不幸的受害者
J:我本应该告诉你的
B式讽刺:因此而感到快乐? So, how big's his dick?(my god,B这样不仅仅是讽刺了,他侮辱了J对B的爱,他明知道J不是为了性而性。我曾经针对这个问题发过帖子,同志圈中的性爱之间到底是如何区分的?是先性后爱,先爱后性,是为了性而性,还是为了爱而性?B的想法仅仅是以性来区分J的爱,如果是为了性,我想J完全可以腻在B的房间整天不出门,那足够J享受一辈子的了)
J:这个与那儿无关(这里J对于B所说的话有些讶异,也有些反感)
B:什么时候你变成这样了?
B拥上J,开始亲吻他并用行动挑逗着:You love cock. You love it down your throat. You love it up your ass. You love riding it. And after you come, you love to fall asleep with it still inside you.(这一段好直接,上英文算了)
B的行为违背了它心里边所要表达的爱,J还能承受多少伤害呢?
J:住手
B:You're hard.别告诉我你不想。(J无奈,没有爱的性是苟且,没有性的爱是残缺。爱与性可谓唇齿相依,荣辱与共。而B却以性为主,轻视了爱。这让J困惑于性与爱之间开始苦苦挣扎。)
J:还有别的事情。
看到刚才J的反应,B随意起来:鲜花?野餐?小提琴乐曲?
J冷静的回答:他爱我
B在冰箱上的手停住了,问题变得严肃起来,他关上冰箱,走回来:你这眼中充满幻想的孩子。
J:他能做得到,你却做不到
B更正:是我不想去做
J:他告诉我,我就是他想要的。
B:他们还在用这个方法?(这方法很老套吗?我不觉得浪漫是件老套的事呀)
J:他说的比你说的多得多(看来J也不反感老套的浪漫)
B走近J,捧着J的脸,用嘴唇轻轻碰触着J的脸颊:并且比我想说的多得多,So,嗯,你他妈的还在这干什么?(B的现实再次击打着J脆弱的心房,如果爱不能改变他,那还有什么可以改变他呢?无奈 ,终究还是无奈 )
J感觉自己就像水中的浮萍,无根地漂游,偶尔被B阳光般的胸膛温暖着,流水般的爱意轻抚着,那时J是快乐的。而每每此刻被牵绊时,总有一种落地生根的兴奋,无奈却总是妄想着停留,只是痴心妄想着,他无声的叹息:你会在意我在不在这?
B盯着J的眼睛,良久良久:你想在哪由你决定,你自己判断。然后,无力的松开了放在J脸庞上的手。
J觉得自己的脸沉浸在捣碎般的痛里:只作片刻的停留就被推向前方,J找不到方向。
面对一个是令J爱到失却自我的B
一个是爱J可以令他伤口慢慢愈合的Ethan
J转身,虽然对B有太多的留恋,但他还是选择了Ethan。(人生总得有所选择,就像B第四季中的话:“在他这个年纪,他有权利做错事”。不经历风雨,怎么见彩虹?)
(J苦守在B身边,等着的是B说爱他,说关心他,给予他受伤的心灵一点慰籍,当他发现一切只是徒劳时,为什么不尝试新的出路呢?为什么非得把自己逼在死胡同里呢?)J一旦选择了,就很难回头。
B尽管有万般不舍,望着J离去的身影,他还是没有勇气去拉回自己心爱的人,戴上眼罩,尽量不让自己的眼泪划落,他将自己的脆弱与失落深深埋在无力的舞动中…….
(一曲哀歌落幕,我,泪如雨下)
Human behaviior
If you ever get close to a human
And human behaviour
Be ready to get confused
There's definitely no logic
To human behaviour
But yet so irristible
Yeah
And there is no map
They're terribly moody
Of human behaviour
Then all of a sudden turn happy
But, oh, to get involved in the exchange
Of human emotions is ever so satisfying
And there is no map
Human behaviour
Human behaviour
Human behaviour
Human behaviour
And there is no map
And a compass
Wouldn't help at all
Yeah
Human behaviour
Human behaviour
Human behaviour
Human behaviour
There's definitely no logic
Human behaviour
Human behaviour
Human behaviour
There's definitely no logic
Human
Human
Human
Human